I’m working on a lot so just cooperate with me.. I’m trying to become a better girlfriend, by not being so paranoid, not getting jealous so easily, making decisions for you and what not, I’m trying to just always being happy for you and being happy with you. That’s pretty much all I want, happiness. I am happy with you I know I am, but it can be stressful.. I’m probably not happy with myself because of the way I am, which is probably why being happy with you is stressful for me, but I’m still happy. Like I said, I’m working on it.
I’m just someone who expects a lot, and cries when it doesn’t happen, but I cry at night when no one really cares and no one can really hear me.
I just want things to be the way that it use too.. I miss when a guy would be so sweet to me.. Now the way I’m being treated, I feel like I’m just a friend to you, like not a girlfriend but a girl that’s a friend? does that make sense? It’s hard enough we can’t see each other as much as we’d liked, I get that. When we talk, you talk to me like a regular person, like yea we talk real conversations that’s normal, where’s the sweetness though? where’s all the things you’d say to only your girlfriend? where are the words that would make me feel special? … I’m trying my best to express how happy I am to talk to you, tell you i miss you, y’know? the cute stuff.. I don’t do it too much, I control it, because that can get annoying but it’s not something you shouldn’t do ever? I kind of expect it from you too. Unless you don’t miss me y’know.. I just miss how special I use to feel.. I miss how you would talk to me late at night, I miss how you’d tell me goodnight with an I love you… without me having to say it first. I guess we just made it a routine and it’s lost it’s meaning, or I guess we say it all the time it’s best we don’t say it so it WON’T lose it’s meaning, I guess the fact that we don’t do that anymore is because, well.. you don’t feel the same way about me like before and you don’t realize it therefore it just stopped so it’s not a big deal? Am I overthinking? probably.. but I don’t know how to stop.. I’m crazy.. *sigh*
honestly, can you answer what guys should do when you’re on the phone with your girlfriend and she’s upset, even when you’re tired and sleepy? I really want to know your opinions..
after you leave someone and then you go back, it’s just not the same. Depends, it could either be better because you both made changes to make things between both of you better or when you come back it would just be worse because it was a repetition of the past and you’re again just realizing why you left in the first place.
all I do is cry in the middle of the night.. and I can’t explain why. I know why I’m crying but I can’t express how I feel in words except by crying..
if someone from the internet wants to meet me cool alright im down but i just hope they’re not expecting much cause im even uglier in person